31 December 2001


My Grand Total for 2001. Not entirely accurate, since I'd only kept track since October. But I'm proud of those words, and maybe a portion of those words will one day be seen in print.

I'm itching to get started on 2002 already. Little more than an hour to go...then the '02 Dare #1 begins.

this is really moving slow. I thought i would have had more than 295 words by now. Oh well, no reason to stop here, guess I'll be bringing in the new year writing.

As I'm sitting here, I'm thinking about what I want to accomplish in the coming year. First and foremost, I want to finish a novel. Maybe two. It would be great if they're polished already submitted by December 31, 02. Well at least one of the two. I also want to work on my poetry more. I've written poetry, and frankly I think it is a bit amateurish. I'd like to do some open mic this year as well, and that is gonna take major cojones on my part, since I *hate* speaking in front of folks. But it will be a huge accomplishment in my book. I am also going to work hard on understanding the short story form. I have the hardest time distilling an idea down to short story form, but I realize it's only going to come with practice. My first foray is currently at a standstill at 10K+ words, but I am starting to understand what needs to be cut, and more importantly, WHY.

1032 words for the 29th
40 words for the 30th

And here I am on the last day of 2001, trying to see just how much can I write with a little less than 4 hours to go. My New Year's resolutions includes a 500/day minimum requirement--like vitamins. Shouldn't be too hard. I just need to get off my lazy ass and do it.

Current music: Hurricane Soundtrack

29 December 2001

734 words so far, slow going.

Only 5K to go, and I will have "officially" reached the NaNo goal. But that doesn't mean I'm done...not by a long shot. I'm thinking this book will go to at least 90-100K. So I've hit the halfway mark.

I ended friday with a grand total of 1135 words. Not a spectacular day, but I was fighting sleep every step of the way. Got a long good night's sleep, and am feeling better today .

28 December 2001

1052 word so far. This scene is not very clear. Could be because I am sleepy, or that it sucks. I think I'm just sleepy and not thinking clearly.

More later.

477 words and still going...

It's Writing Time and I'm writing. YEAHHHH! Ok, so I've been pretty damn lazy this month. All excuses aside, that is basically what it all boils down to. Pure, unadulterated laziness. So far today, I've got 380 words down. Baby steps...but at least i'm moving! [11:42am]

25 December 2001

Which Rocky character are you?

Happy Holidays!!

I'm writing. I'm not working on EDEN'S PROMISE, but I'm writing. Poetry tonight. A lot of stuff on my mind that needs to be cleared out.

I am glad that Christmas is turning out to be a good one for my kids at least. I was stressing out about it last week. Me...I personally have *little* Christmas spirit, but I put up a good front.

24 December 2001

Christmas holidays have forced me to take a couple of days off. Can't wait until all this stuff is over. Not really in the Christmas spirit this year, but my kids are forcing it into me.

I've been making notes here and there, but no real progress as yet.

19 December 2001

An Epiphany!

I'm a member of a ton of writing lists, and I have 2 tons of writing reference books. Guess what....aside from a choice few....I DON'T NEED THEM!! That "writing secret" all new writers are looKing for....we all know it doesn't really exist, but we hope, by joining every email list, and buying the latest how-to book, that we will have discovered the "Holy Grail". And I finally realized...THERE AIN'T ONE!!! . All I really need to learn is TO SIT MY ASS DOWN AND WRITE. That's all there is to it. In the past 7 weeks, I've learned a lot about wriitng, and "my way" of writing. That's all that matters. And what seems to work for me, may not work for the next person. But for EVERY writer...the bottom line isJUST DO IT!!

This is freedom for me. Less time taken up with surfing and reading email, and more time writing. Of course, there are a few lists that I will remain a part of....but by choice, not some sort misguided sense of necessity.

And now...back to your regular programming.....

16 December 2001

431 words today. it is slow going, but I am gonna stick with my self-imposed daily minimum of 500 words. they are like pulling teeth!! i think i need to read my last section over tomorrow morning, before getting started on the days work. that way i can get back into character.

ok...let's see, its 8:06...what else do i have to do today: some reading, getting ready for work tomorrow. ok so it should be a faily early night...lol...meaning i should be in bed by 1 am.

oddly enough...they're back.

HEY! What the hell happened to my comments. DAMMIT!

I'm reading S.L. Vieh's Star LInes and I feel like she's speaking to me. Why do I write? I've been avoiding that post at Forward Motion, I wanted to think about it for a while. Especially now, since I haven't been writing. I cannot imagine not writing. And I would like to think that I have something to say. I'm not looking to write the next literary classic. I don't want to be studied in classrooms long after I've turned to dust. I just want someone, somewhere, to say, Wow, that was fun! I loved that character!

Writing makes me feel good. I like the act of creating. Writing keeps me creative. I wish I could sing, but I can't. I can't draw for beans, and I can't dance. But I write. And in my writing, I can sing, dance, paint, draw, hell, I can even fly. That's what it feels like when its going good. I have created a world inhabited by people much like the folks around us. I want readers to visit that world and have a good time. But I am realizing that I have been treating it like a hobby, or just "something I do". So now I need to move it up in the priority scale. Give writing the importance I give my day job, the one that pays the bills, so that I can eventually make writing the job that pays the bills.

"A professional is a person who can do his best at a time when he doesn't particularly feel like it."

- Alistair Cooke

This quote is definitely appropriate. I haven't "felt like" writing, and so I haven't. But I'm realizing that in order to reach the goals I have set, "not feeling like it" isn't good enough. So I need to get back on track. I am committing myself to at least 500 words or 2 hours in front of the keyboard on a daily basis. I'm not gonna let "I don't feel like it" to keep me from where I want to be.

13 December 2001

If I were a James Bond villain, I would be Hugo Drax.

I enjoy rare orchids, hunting people with dogs, and passing judgment on humanity as unworthy of life.

I am played by Michael Lonsdale in Moonraker.

Who would you be? James Bond Villain Personality Test

11 December 2001

I am having an "I hate my writing" day. Things have pretty much come to a standstill, and I am doubting myself and my skill [or lack thereof]. Can I pull this off? Can I make this story the saga I envision in my head?

10 December 2001

ok i think i've added a counter to the page. let's see if it works.

09 December 2001

And if that wasn't enough...

[If I were an online test, I would be How British Are You?]

I'm How British Are You?!

I know the differences between Brits and Americans, and I'm just so glad to tell you all about them. I won't say too much, though, or I'll exceed my daily bandwidth limit. Again.

Click here to find out which test you are!

STILL not writing, however...

Strawberry: 20/100 Pear: 20/100 Banana: 60/100 Tomato: 10/100 Lemon: 20/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by webkin and aaronr!

4 days off. i've hit the wall. don't know what the next scene is going to be, and have been too busy otherwise to do more than just think about it. EDEN'S PROMISE is shaping up to be a mystery, but I want to lessen the mystery aspect, and heighten the political intrigue a bit. I'll have to think about it a little further.

I am cleaning. I neglected my house during the month of November, and right now, it is a sty. I just can't take it anymore. So I write, take break, clean, take break, write, etc. It's prolonging a task I hate, with a task I enjoy, so as long as it all gets done, I guess it doesn't matter.

Another thing I've noticed in the past few days....HOW do writers with jobs & families do it? Ok, last month, I eliminated any semblance of a life, and concentrated on writing. But now that Christmas is approaching [tho i wish it were over already], I am looking for time to fit in everything I need to do: time with kids, work, shop, clean, cook, write. I think that will have to be one of my resolutions for the new year....learn some time management.

On another note, my creative spirit is taking over...I am rediscovering the joys of crochet & knitting. Yes, even though [as i mentioned above] I have no time, I've added another hobby to my already busy life. Hell, I only have one life, so I guess I'm gonna figure out a way to cram as much good stuff into it as I can.

I'll be a tired soul in the afterlife, but I will be a happy, tired soul in the afterlife, with an eternity to rest.

05 December 2001

1800 for the night, bringing my total to 42,015. i don't know if i'll make my friday deadline, but i will keep on nevertheless. someone died today, and the shit is about to hit the fan. Wheeeee!!!

hellooo blog buddies!!! i've missed blogging, and related to that, I've missed writing. but on the other hand, it was good to go to bed at 10:00 and get up with some semblance of a personality.

But i'm back on the case now, and I've got 1035 words so far this evening.

as Robert says...Onwards!

02 December 2001

almost a 4K day....goddammit, i've totally surprised myself. I thought it was gonna be a struggle getting to 2K today, but that was hours ago. Wheeeeee! I'm enjoying the ride!

The WinterFest Tale is done. Comes in at 1184 words, including Holly's opener. It is the shortest anything I've ever written, aside from poetry. I'm so proud of myself.

moving right along. i posted my goals for 2002 on Foward Motion, and did the zettercise for today (which I also posted). I've got 1285 words on Eden's Promise, and started writing my Winterfest Tale for the challenge. I've got 168 words on that as well. All in all, it's a good writing day.

already got 500 words for the day, which i put down before i went to bed. exciting scene, and someone's gonna die. no biggie....its a red shirt, not integral to the plot, but his death will be.

i'm also gonna work on a zettercise today. i keep meaning to do them, and there's no time like the present. I also hope to get to work this week on some '02 goal setting. this will be a great year for me, i can feel it!!

01 December 2001

so far i've written 388 words today. and I skimmed-read the first section, that I hadn't looked at since i wrote it. DAMN! the inconsistencies are awful. i need to revise for continuity, and to keep things fresh in my head and make notes. But that comes later....AFTER I've completed a first draft.


My NaNoWriMo total. So I didn't make it to 50K. No problem...I'll ge there, and pass it, cause this one is far from done!


i back in the saddle again. i want to get 2K down today. i also want to start thinking about goals for december, and long range goals for 2002, as well as shorter term goals for 1Q02. i've got so much i want to do, it looks like now more than ever i need to really start planning and implementing goals into my daily life. if nothing else, NaNoWriMo taught me that much.