22 February 2003

added another 723 words. and EP is starting to "wake up" for me, so i'm gonna ride this wave while it lasts. it feels really good to be writing again. i've also been invited to post an exercise on the erotica board. now that is a genre i haven't written in a while, and i am looking forward to it. i can at least live vicarously through my characters

the words are coming, slowly but surely. i only wrote a measly 308 words so far, but that is 308 words i didn't have yesterday. i'm suffering from not having outlined previously, and EP is going to take a lot of rewiriting. i'm at the point where i just want it done, so i can fix it and make it right. and of course move onto the other 2 novels that are currenlty marinating. then there are the other two books in the Eden series.

12 February 2003

i really really want a cigarette. it's been what....about 18 hours thus far. i don't know if i can do it. i am accustomed to sitting at the keyboard with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth. i don't even have any candy or lollipops as oral substitutes. this sucks.

11 February 2003

ok. time to put the knitting away and back to writing.

10 February 2003

i just read rob's post of 1/28 about the post first draft blues. he touched on his fears, one of which i share with him. i'm afraid of not getting "deep enough" with my writing. i can put together a scene, a short, maybe even a whole novel. but does it mean anything? am i making an emotional connection with potential readers. sure it's easy to maintain interest with action and events, but if you don't care about what happens to my characters i will never get published. it's as simple as that. i guess this all comes from my lack of confidence in my writing ability. i've never completed anything more than one short story. i've started a multitude of novels, but have never stuck with any of them. my instincts told me that my ideas, while good, were not enough for a novel. and sure enough, i'd crash and burn shortly after starting. Eden's Promise is currently at approx. 70K. that is the most i've ever written on ONE project. i started it in november 2001 for NaNoWriMo. i didn't make 50K that month, but i stuck with it, and in the 15 months since, i managed to only double my word count. i should have finished this long ago. i've procrastinated, ruminated, and did everything to avoid finishing this novel. to be honest, RL did interfere for a while, but that is not a valid excuse. if i ever want to be a working writer, i cannot afford to let my day-to-day life take me away from my work. in fact my writing should be a priority in my day-to-day life without fail. and i haven't yet made that jump into level of commitment. it is time for me to step up to the plate and (hopefully) hit one out of the park. not tomorrow, not next year, not when i get financially settled. the time is NOW.

08 February 2003

everything looks to be working. now i just need to start updating regularly, so i can generate some traffic.

07 February 2003

ok, well i'm now trying to republish changes i made, but it doesnt seem to be taking.

i'm not sure i know what i'm doing with Eden's Promise. i'm just going a long, writing anything. don't know if it makes sense at all. but i guess that is what revisions are for. i'm intimidated by the idea though. i will be actively seeking revision advice at Forward Motion

i'm writing. not much, but it's a start. 600 words between last nite/this morning.

ok. seems as though now they're working. yay.

ok. seems as though now they're working. yay.

let's try this again

oh hell. i can't seem to get them to work.

i'm trying enetation. let's see if it works.

ok. well apparently i've lost my comments. my blogback account expired. damn.

04 February 2003

Blowing off tha dust...

i'm back. january started off well, but disintegrated quickly. i'm writing, ever so slowly. i've had a lot of ideas come to me for revisions on Eden's Promise. i just want to type "the end" so i can get started on revising. i'm currently reading The Disappeared by Kristine Kathryn Rusch. I think this is going to be a new series (i hope). i'm also getting a lot of thoughts on how to improve EP. Not plaigarism, but more of a sense of what i've left out.